Everything (Everything) Will Be Just Fine

I wanna start watching anime again. That would really help me with my mangas and stuff. Unfortunately, my internet connection doesn't agree with me. It's going all lag and disconnect on ma ass like there's no tomorrow.

Well, on the plus side I've managed to download two movies in the past week! That's an accomplishment!

Leaving for my school Sejarah trip tomorrow. It's gonna be a blast! If you brush aside the facts that I'm leaving for Kudat in a 3 hour bus ride, sleeping in an old-fashioned, not-air-conditioned (not even fan), bug-ridden longhouse, bathing in a brown-stained toilet with bugs and shnuff, and being in that camp knowing the person I like is NOT going to make any move any time soon because this person doesn't return my feelings, the camp's gonna be good.

But all those points up there, y'know, they're the downers.

I've managed to get this far. There's no point in wallowing just cause life doesn't always go your way.

I have a few simple words to live by now- "My life is simple. I'm breathing, I'm good, I'm alive."

 That's the only truth Imma need from now on. Shit's gonna get rough, that's certain. And of course I'm gonna have fallouts, I'm gonna cry my eyes out at some silly argument or fight, and someday I'm gonna get so heartbroken to the point of suicidal,

But I know who I am. Partly, at least.

I'm Kye Tamm. I'm Flare Blitz. I'm me, and no one can make me feel different for myself. I love being me. My life is good. I'm not gonna end it just cause a few things happen to be dark.

I'm gonna take those bad things and that darkness, and turn it into motivation to go forward. I'm gonna release that anger and sorrow, and turn myself into a better person. Slowly, you know? It ain't gonna be easy, that's for sure. But it ain't an impossibility either.

Besides that, I'm up to Chapter 11 in the Trinity. Got a bit of a writer's block right now. And a singer's block (hahaha) but my drawing's still up and good! Things are going great, and I'm lovin' it.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine.
Everything (everything) will be alright.