Everything (Everything) Will Be Just Fine

I wanna start watching anime again. That would really help me with my mangas and stuff. Unfortunately, my internet connection doesn't agree with me. It's going all lag and disconnect on ma ass like there's no tomorrow.

Well, on the plus side I've managed to download two movies in the past week! That's an accomplishment!

Leaving for my school Sejarah trip tomorrow. It's gonna be a blast! If you brush aside the facts that I'm leaving for Kudat in a 3 hour bus ride, sleeping in an old-fashioned, not-air-conditioned (not even fan), bug-ridden longhouse, bathing in a brown-stained toilet with bugs and shnuff, and being in that camp knowing the person I like is NOT going to make any move any time soon because this person doesn't return my feelings, the camp's gonna be good.

But all those points up there, y'know, they're the downers.

I've managed to get this far. There's no point in wallowing just cause life doesn't always go your way.

I have a few simple words to live by now- "My life is simple. I'm breathing, I'm good, I'm alive."

 That's the only truth Imma need from now on. Shit's gonna get rough, that's certain. And of course I'm gonna have fallouts, I'm gonna cry my eyes out at some silly argument or fight, and someday I'm gonna get so heartbroken to the point of suicidal,

But I know who I am. Partly, at least.

I'm Kye Tamm. I'm Flare Blitz. I'm me, and no one can make me feel different for myself. I love being me. My life is good. I'm not gonna end it just cause a few things happen to be dark.

I'm gonna take those bad things and that darkness, and turn it into motivation to go forward. I'm gonna release that anger and sorrow, and turn myself into a better person. Slowly, you know? It ain't gonna be easy, that's for sure. But it ain't an impossibility either.

Besides that, I'm up to Chapter 11 in the Trinity. Got a bit of a writer's block right now. And a singer's block (hahaha) but my drawing's still up and good! Things are going great, and I'm lovin' it.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine.
Everything (everything) will be alright.

OKAY.

Because witty lines are hard to come up with.

I watched Monsters University a few nights ago. It was funny! And I feel kinda bad for MIKE WAZOWSKI. But I ain't spoilin anything.

Besides that, I've been going on Omegle recently...

Not for any specific reason.

I just.. wanna make friends.

ESPECIALLY AFTER READIN A SPECIFIC BOOK.

"You@Me.com" by KE Payne.

Holy hot damn, I just bought it today and I'm nearly done. It's, well, yuri. About a girl named Immy who meets someone online and falls in love with them.

Shiet, reminds me of some things.

It's a good book and I'm completely hooked by it!

But, yeah, I just.. wanna meet people. From different sides of the world. I guess. I dunno. Maybe iz just me.

After all iz not everyday you get to meet someone, fall magically in love, and have that happy ever after everyone dreams of.

Then again, I have ice cream in the fridge.... Seems like a good happy ending to me.

Haze

The haze coming in from Indonesia is crazy. 

Schools in Kuala Lumpur are closed because of it. We have to leave the house wearing masks and stuff. It's like the start of a zombie epidemic. Creepy as hell. 

At the same time cool. 

Make fun of the situation. Soon everyone will be sporting red mouths and dry skin, and cannibalism will be a new all-time thing.  

But meh. 

Hope haze can close down my school. 

Else' zombie epidemic attack us all.

Sam Tsui's Album "Make It Up"

Is actually pretty damn good.

I love four songs especially; Shadow, Me Without You, Don't Want An Ending (cover), and Bring Me The Night (ft. Kina Grannis <3).

I listen to that repeatedly. Maybe it's also cause no other recent songs have appealed to me as much.

Damn it, Taylor. When's your next album coming out, huh?! A girl needs her Swift-Love man.

But moving on from that, I suppose I owe everyone an explanation on my absence. Honest to god I didn't think I wouldn't be updating for that long. But then again it wasn't that long anyways. And no one really reads my blog so...

I'M INNOCENT.

My exam marks are horrible. They're just-- Just horrible. I think they're my worst yet. I don't even think I'm gonna pass my average. It's horrible. Sigh. Mum's picking my report card up on Saturday. God, I hope she doesn't show dad. It would be terrible if she does. Say bye-bye to new computer, laptop and phone! Okay, I ask for too many things. Just computer.

Then again, I need a portable device to type my stories in... And I don't use my bb for anything besides writing down stories. But that's probs because I don't buy credit for it.

Besides that, I failed at buying a punching bag. Firstly because I assumed it was only 50 bucks. Turns out I was wrong. The best one (large, heavy and perfect for my epic wolverine claws) is at its LOWEST PRICE RM499.

Not bad. But I still don't have the cash for that yet. I will soon. I hope.

Leaving for KL tomorrow to see my cousin TanTon Tan. Can't wait! I really miss her. She's like that lil sister of mine that I never had. She's 12 this year, I think. Haha. I used to carry her on my back, and be all like "Yeah foo Imma strong like Hulk."

Now I'm lucky if I can survive her glomping me. She's not big. She's just tall. Not as tall as me, but soon. It's ... not fair.

Just... Not fair.

Oh my god,

Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god.

What in hell's name just happened?

The latest episode of Game of Thrones has me in a complete twirl. I can't even-- I can't even comprehend it. Shit. I just--

I love Game of Thrones. I do. It keeps me interested. Keeps me entertained. Keeps my emotions brewing.

But goddamnit, they're rewriting everything I -and most of the public- know about general television shows! First of all, GTS don't go killing off their main characters. Especially not more than 3 main characters, but hell they did! I can't even begin to explain my emotions. It's like a rushing hurricane! The stress, the drama, the deaths, the betrayal- Oh good god, this is insane.

On the plus side, I commented on episode 10's premier video and my comment was one of the top comments! Hey sue me if I've never been on the top comments and want to bask in the glory...

But I'll get to that.

Yes, Game of Thrones has me in a complete mess. I want to go into further detail but I don't want to spoiler it, in case a passerby sees this and goes all FLAME-WARS on me.

Fark. I just hope nothing happens to ma Arya <3 Ha. Ha. Ha.

Man, I love her. Her witty comebacks and bravo confidence is just so hard to dislike. Her bravery is respectable as well. Hard to see girls like that. And I'm glad there's a character who represents females in that manner.

But yes, on to the fact that my comment was made one of the top comments!

can you blame me for loving the limelight?

btw, for those of you who can't see, I said "I love Game of Thrones, I really do. but damn I hate Game of Thrones."

The Holiday

I can feel it coming to a tight close.

I still have one more week left. Today, being Sunday, is the last day of the first week of freedom. After the upcoming Sunday, I'm back to the chains of school.

I probably wouldn't have any trouble with school if everything was in English, or if the teachers were any good at educating. But seriously, I probably chose one of the worst possible schools to attend. For that, I apologize to myself.

BUT, thankfully, even though I might not be going to Melbourne next year, I'll still be able to transfer schools.

Well, imma gon enjoy the holiday while it lasts. Still got a few things I need to do though. Like write at LEAST 2 more chapters in the Trinity. I'm up to chapter 10, but to prove to my friends I won't quit on this, I need at least 12 chapters. I'm not gonna stop writing the Trinity. It's the only book I can see published out there. It's THE book that'll kickstart my 'career'. Ha. ha. ha. Being optimistic here, okay?

Sisterhood Cross <3