Finally Grew The Balls To Talk To Him

And he's surprisingly really friendly.

Didn't expect that. Now I can't tell if he feels the same or not. Nah, he doesn't.

But anyways, just got back from Keningau! Good trip. Was able to test out a real punching bag. Although I didn't wear my hand bandages so I ended up bruising my knuckles but it was nothing serious at all. Just a little red, then it faded off.

Gonna buy one soon. Boo-yah!

I'm so bored of Mass Effect, it's not even... Like, I can't even... My goodness.

Played each game (ME1, ME2, ME3) at least 4 times. Mass Effect 2 I think I've played that the most. More than 7 times. I swear. I'm not even kidding. Both on Computer and xBox. After all, that's the first Mass Effect game I've ever played. Mass Effect 3? Played it about 5 times.

Oh hells, I can predict everything, I can't even play it anymore. I'm just like, faaark.

Awaiting Dragon Age 3.

Oh Dragon Age 3.

I'll stick to re-building my Sims 2 neighborhood, the one I lost. I can't start anew. I've worked too far to quit on it now.

:)

Teenage Hormones.

Don't you agree that they suck?

Because let's face it, those are the little critters that cause us to feel attracted to people who apparently aren't equally as attracted to us.

In short: We like people who don't like us.

Insert sad face here.

Relationships are a waste of time at this age. I get that, I do. But after what I've experienced, after the countless movies and series I've watched, and after the books I've read and written, I don't know, I guess my knowledge on romance needs a test subject. In theory, of course. I want to prove to someone that goddamn it I could be a pretty good girlfriend.

Cause I'm just awesome that way.

No, actually I'm just gay that way. Ha. Ha. Ha. But moving on from that, I have to start up my Cyahazard Comics. They're the first step to the actual creation of Cyahazard. It's awesome, really. As soon as I learn how to draw anatomy thoroughly. Maybe I can go for classes. Or at least, get a 'model' so I can get a live anatomy figure. Hope so. Either way, I'm determined to live my way with meaning.

Hidup yang berfaedah.

I'm tired of caring about relationships. I'm gon' be Flare Blitz with meaning man. 

Cyahazard Superheroes

Because I am SOOO hooked on Marvel Superheroes right now it's not even sane anymore.

Not just Marvel even. Just Superheroes in general. Spiderman, Iron Man, Hulk, Avengers, Thor, Justice League, Green Lantern, Captain America, so on, so on.

I LOVE EM ALL.

Because of that, Cyahazard has expanded to building comic book superheroes.

Those of including Flare Blitz, The Tie/White Tie, REBEL, Greybreed, The Silver Agent, Sisterhood Cross, The Commander, Tigerboy, Ice Blue, Boy-Beast, so on, so on.

Scream hells yeah to awesomeness!

I'm Pretty Damn Sad..

Cause my Sims 2 file is corrupted.

I downloaded Sims 2 Pets. Played for a while. Decided I didn't like it, and uninstalled it.

Problem was, I didn't back my previous saved files up. So I ended up uninstalling Sims 2 Pets, along with my whole neighborhood.

It deleted everything.

... Eight months spent building that neighborhood, making babies, creating new characters and expanding family trees- All for nothing. Now it's all gone.

DAMNIT KYE BACK SHIT UP NEXT TIME.

Sigh.

I yearn for a punching bag.

Changed My Blog Template!

And look, it's so pretty now! With dragons and that whole "Houston, we have a problem." thing.

Hell yeah you do.

Anyways, I should explain how it went during camp. It went surprisingly well. I mean, I expected something to go wrong or rather. And it did, kinda. It was so hot. Even at night. We ended up not using our tents at all and sleeping in the office instead with air-conditioner.

I guess as the 21st Century kids we can never be primitive. We're too sophisticated for that.

Plus, I watched Life of Pi again with Evelyn and Siska!

All in all, it went pretty good. Oh, and Evelyn, Kat, Kenneith, Aiden and I did a mash-up song.

Thrift Shop + Battle Scars.

It sounded.. EPIC. Gonna record and post it up soon, hopefully.

Besides that, I just posted my new cover of Heart Attack on youtube! Please check it out if you have the time! :)

So that's that.

I have a camp tomorrow!

In school. We're staying over :p It's a school thing so we're not doing it illegally or anything. We have teacher-chaperones and everything! Food and accommodation is provided! But you have to bring your own tent and toiletries and shit.

The down side to it is that we have to bathe in school. How primitive. Hahaha, well it's true considering there are only two shower stalls in school and according to my friend, brown liquid poured out of it at one point.

Not exactly a pleasing thought.

I hope our teacher allows us to go to a friend's house to shower. I mean, the water is filthy in school and more than 27 girls have to bathe so how are we all gonna fit in those two stalls! Impractical, I say!

But yeah, good side is that most of my close friends are going (Evelyn, Hannah, Michelle, umm.. me. Yeah. I'm my own friend. Shuddup.) so we get to do campfires and shit. Hannah wants me to download ghost movies.

Hahahaha no way in hell am I doing that!

Well, yeah. That's it so far.

Oh, btw. Note to self: Stop assuming. Even if other people point it out don't make it necessarily true. When you find out it isn't true, everything comes tumbling down like hard bricks. It sucks. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Note to self number 2: I know you like staying in a crush-frenzy for a long time (it makes you feel better about yourself) but this guy ain't worth it. Sides, what happened to 'liking the relationship (I) have with ME and Sim characters?'

You pathetic fool. Although now that I think about it, I'm not sure which one of those makes you pathetic.

I don't know,

I mean, you're the one who turned me but hot baby damn, you were kind of a grinch to me last time. Or maybe I was a grinch to you. Can't be too sure.

Old blogs. Memories. Man, they all just came back in a flash. It was pretty vivid too. Didn't quite expect me to remember shit like that... I think a quarter of my memories from Lok Yuk returned.

I miss it. I do.

I was young, naive, skinny and pretty back then.

Now?

... Well no comment :3

I am constantly bothered by my physique.

I've accepted I'll never be Megan Fox, or Amber Heard, or even Miley Cyrus!

But everytime I try to lose weight it never works.

I'm completely bothered. Sometimes it comes to the point of self-abuse and I can't stop it. Something's wrong with me.

I've known it since I was born.

Friday

And it's killing me that I have nothing to do.

I need to occupy myself. Or I get sleepy. Or cranky and hungry. It's not a pleasant feeling. I don't envy those who feel it at all.

I can't write. For some reason my mind has shut down in a momentary paralysis. Words are running through but forming almost mutatedly.

I can't sing. Can't draw. Can't game. Need to do something.

Don't know what to do.

I feel like there's a bug in my head. All paths are blocked. And I'm stuck.

Corrections All Day

Cause forgive me but I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to English.

Just Visited My Friend In the Hospital.

Ah damn, there's just something about you. So stupid..

I mean, no matter what you do, how bad it gets and how far you go with another person, I just can't quite stay mad at you. Not for long, anyways. I'll be hurt, sure, but I can't picture my future without you.

And I don't know if that's a platonic friend thing, or if I'm seriously crushing over you AGAIN. But I don't want it to be the latter cause I can picture myself with other hotter and nicer people who'll treat me as an equal, but somehow as long as I'm still on the market, I feel like there's some lingering chance from our last encounter that makes the situation awkward.

One-sided, more like it.

Anyways, dinner was lovely :) We had oxtail. Spicy oxtail. Tasted DE-LISH. And though I shudder at spice, I took it surprisingly well. Way to go, spicy taste buds! You're making mama proud!

... Okay that was just weird.

Lost 300 bucks.

And my original $700 secret cache has gone down to a hundred and twenty.

A HUNDRED AND TWENTY.

I'm broke. whaddafudge?!

Hahaha oh whatever. I bought those things and I don't regret it! >:)

... I wonder if there are job openings in the mall.

Get Well Soon Gifts

Because it's customary to bring food for a sick friend or relative if you visit them right? It's common sense.

Says the gay little boy with the hugest crush on the sick popular girl.

But anyways, not the point.

So a friend of mine is currently in the hospital. Apparently she fainted :O Oh dear.

I tried to visit her. But right when I came, she was having a 'scan'. Like a cat scan. Doctors nowadays. They wanna see if there are cats inside a person, pff idiots.

But yeah, so she asked me to visit her tonight. Don't know if I can but I'll try :)

My parents are inviting a few close family friends over tonight for a lovely dinner, and I'm not sure if I can wiggle out of it. I'm bad of wiggling.

It's almost as bad as my exercising.

It's not cool

But I still think of you. :\

... dying.

and being eaten by bears.

and sharks.

and lizards.

and your remains being swallowed by a snake.

Just sayin'.

ORDERED.

So get this, after my rant on Mass Effect's terrible casual clothing, I looked it up, and somehow found myself on a Bioware merchandise website.

They had cool stuff :p The N7 hoodie, a few epic looking shirts, and guess what? I actually ordered one.

So yeah, there's my purchase! It's a cool white V-Neck shirt that says 'We'll Bang, Ok?' in the front.

HAHA. Classic MaleShep. Sigh. I love Mass Effect.

ANYWHO. Yeah, that's about it :) Awaiting the arrival of the epic shirt!

No fashion sense, much?

Cause that's the only thing that runs through my mind when I play Mass Effect 2. Considering I've played that game a million times, I don't really concentrate on either the gameplay or the story anymore. But the clothing always catches my attention!

And not in a good way too! Yeesh!

Aight, I mean, the armors are all cool! But it's the casual dresses and outfits poeple where that just makes me wonder... Is the future seriously like this? They don't even show any skin anymore!

Say goodbye to hot sleeveless singlets that guys wear on a hot day. Say sayanora to those miniskirts and tank tops that girls put on to make a day even hotter.

It's horribleh!

Plus, you don't even get any decent outfit choices to pick from. My manShep looks like a gigolo because of that! I mean, Bioware, seriously? What happened to our casual T-shirts? Jeans? Sneakers that screech? I miss em' good clothing! It's the only thing that bothers me about the game. Well, kinda.

AND NOT JUST IN MASS EFFECT BUT THE CLOTHING IN DRAGON AGE? OH DON'T GET ME STARTED.

Bioware, open your eyes.

I know not all the fans agree with me. Considering this game is an action RPG. But still, some of us want to see some good fashion. And mind you, I am NOOO fashionista. I wear casual shit everyday even to formal events!

But I still want to see some hot clothing!

Because I have WAY too many blogs.

And I seriously cannot keep up. For some reason, I just enjoy creating new ones and starting from scratch. Which is an oddity considering the fact that I don't much enjoy picking out templates and shit.

Hehe, anyways, my brother advised me to create a Tumblr account, and I probably will someday. But I just want a blog for more private and intimate stuff :p Just cause I'm a loser like that. HA HA HA.

But yeah.

So I read through a few posts from my oooold blog back when I was Form 1.

Bloody hell. I was a HUGE DICK back then. Like, no kidding! xD

A huge dick, a huge cheeseball, a huge douche! I don't know. Name it all! But I have to admit, I had it pretty good then. For one, my friends didn't pelt me with insults everyday like they do now :p Although I should be thankful for that. They're prepping me for the real world. Or so I tell myself.

Anyways, yeah I was a huge retard xD If I could go back in time and slap myself, I would! I'd tell myself to grow up too cause boy was I immature. But I guess at one point everyone was, right? :)

I thought losing my 'partner' was the end of the world at that time. Sigh. Way ta seem 'mature', Kye. :p

Oh well, times changed. I'm a new person. I think. I hope I am. I don't wanna be that kid again. I mean, reading through it... I was seriously distraught.

I remind myself of those really annoyingly depressed kids who are spoiled and bratty and snobbish. Dang Kye, just dang!

But I'm good now :D Drawing and reading and writing and singing! All is EPIC. Plus, I'm gaming! Things are going GREAT.