Waste of my goddamned fucking time.
What have I ever done to deserve this, huh?
Everything I've done, EVERYTHING that I've done, has been a mirror of how you've treated me. You think it's so crazy for me to react this way? You think it's WOW SO FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE that I'm overreacting like this? When you've been doing it to me ALL THIS FUCKING TIME.
I'm pissed off. That's obvious. But maybe what's not obvious is the fact that everything I say, everything I do, is for your comfort. I add little details about what I'm doing so you won't get mad. Like saying I'm studying for the next chapter but quickly adding, I have to do it in advance cause I'm taking fucking notes. Cause that takes me all night. Cause I'm stupid as fuck and if I just read it or take last-minute notes I won't remember shit, not like I'll remember them anyway, but I have to try because my GPA is at a THREE POINT FUCKING SIX. And I kinda want it to remain that way instead of dropping. Cause you and I both know I'm not raising my chemistry grade anytime soon.
How did it even fucking come to this?
I've never been this angry, this volatile, this undoubtedly insane before in my entire life. I've never been so prone to cry in the middle of studying because apparently I've done it wrong. Apparently just me studying makes my girlfriend fucking pissed at me.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO
Holy fuck.
You'd rather be dead?
I'd rather be dead.
Maybe then the pain'd be less fucking gut-wrenching.
Maybe then I wouldn't have to believe my girlfriend hates everything I say and do.
